Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I'd stay up and think of you
And I'd wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

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Oh yeah. Its exactly 1 week since the promise. 7 more weeks to go.

When was the last time you feel lonely??

Was playing L4D with Boon and SJ. KM can't join us cos he's sick. Sigh. Hope he'll recover soon.

Walked home just now. Well, I didn't exactly walked home from Katong, but took 76 to YCK road before it turns into AMK Ave 3 and I alighted to walk back home. It was a 25 mins walk.

I wasn't feeling as down, but I reckoned I needed the walk. To get used to the solitude again. Often, I had noticed that once I've had fun and enjoyed myself with friends, and when its time to go on our separate ways back home, the loneliness kicks itself back in. And the impact felt became magnified due to the stark contrast between the company you were with and the sudden stillness of being alone.

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Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what's inside?
Would you even care?

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The impact was greatest at night. At wee hours of the night. When there's so few people walking on the same pavement as you, or the passengers in the buses could be counted with both your hands, and you have enough fingers left to eat some finger food. Eileen told me the other day. "Its during at night when you felt the most lonely". Something like that. I know I wasn't the only one, but she's the first to tell me this in person. A lot of my friends would return to a home with parents, and/or siblings to chat to and share with. Or call up their girlfriends/boyfriends to chatter nineteen to the dozens. Or just hit the sack the moment he enters his room. Or start up the computer to go online or to play that popular game everyone's playing.

How many would end up like me? Sitting here in the middle of the night. Contemplating. Absorbing the solitude. Gazing into the night. Thinking of the shadows. Wondering about the coolness. Pondering about the darkness. Listening for the stillness.

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I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you

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While walking back, I suddenly remembered the song I translated halfway a month ago. 小酒窝 a duet by 林俊杰 and 蔡卓妍. I listened to the song on my ipod touch, while thinking of the rest of the lyrics to be translated while walking. And then reaching home, to complete the whole song. With the help of translation tools for certain verbs. Do sing it using the original music. I've translated the song so it follows the music as well.

Small Dimple - JJ Lin and Ah Sa

I am still searching

My dependance, and someone to hug

Who will pray for me, worry for me

Or be angry or get vexed

Happiness starts its omen

Fate slowly embezzled both of us

Then solitude got swallowed up

Boredom morphed into topics, changes are here

Small dimples long eyelash

Are your prettiest features

I can't sleep every night, remembering your smile

You've no idea you're so important to me

Now with you my life has become complete

Small dimple long eyelash

Enchant till incurable

I slowed down my footsteps like I'm intoxicated

Found the beauty of our hearts connect at last

Feeling warmth for the rest of my life

I will love you for ever

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When was the last time you feel lonely?

I feel lonely now.

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但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫

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