阳光总在风雨后
乌云上有睛空
珍惜所有的感动
每一份希望在你手中

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹
风风雨雨都接受
我一直会在你的左右

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ok, so after almost 2 months of inactivity. I think everyone believes my blog is now dead. haha.


I HAD forgotten the reasons why I wanted to shut myself away from people. Recently reminded of the reasons because I met with almost the same situations again with some people. But what the heck, the pros far outweight the cons.

I met really nice people who can be really great friends. And I now find myself having this very important friend to me, it'll kill me to lose her.

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越接近真理，也就能越了解人性
一旦太过了解人性，就会觉得人其实是非常可悲的一种生命

本来具有的真心，全都被世间所有的假象蒙蔽了....

I told Eileen this verse I came out with. Contextually, when I first came out with this verse, it just sprouted off from me. I originally intended to convey the "un-mundane" meaning, but looking at it from another view, actually it very much applies to the mundane world after all.

Her reply? "its.. the ugly truth abt life and humanity"

How appropriate. And ironic. Just after we all watched The Ugly Truth last saturday night....

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不忍心看见我周围的人难过。不忍心看见我周围的人受伤。不忍心看见我周围的人被......

是慈悲吗? 是对大家的感情吗?

对了啊。我还是人。我还不是什么圣者，不是菩萨，不是佛。只是一个受过密教灌顶的未来佛。现在我还是一个有血有肉，有感情，有欲望，有善念，有恶念的一个人。

我还是做不到众生平等。我仍然有所喜，有所恶。

我是修行人。我也认定我此生其中主要的目的就是来修行的。我不后悔走上修行的路。我甚至已经能够明白，我是跟着师尊而来的。

可是我还是一个人。

想到<<明天以后>>这首歌的歌词，又触动了我内心的一部分。一个我绝对不会露出来的一部分。很无奈的，绝对不能露出来的。

我对你感觉胜过爱情 -- 原来如此。就是这样的。已经胜过爱情了。

爱情总让人折磨所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友 -- 原来如此。这样才能保证永永远远吧。不是以情人或夫妻，而是以朋友保持永远的感情。

这就是从小爱进化成的大爱吗？我不清楚，也不明白。因为除了师尊，除了佛，除了菩萨，除了圣者，很少很少人知道什么是真正的大爱。

突然间觉得好像变成要写稿交上真佛报的。也许这几天若是有什么灵感的话就试试投稿吧。

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How to make people happy?

Eileen said something which struck me quite badly. So I am still unworthy to make people around me happy.
Sympathy is not enough. Empathy is not enough. Compassion is not enough. Sincerity is not enough. I still lack... lacking in......... .................. ..............................


I want to make everyone happy. Everyone. Because I can't bear to see......


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放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚么都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有