人生是苦乐参半？其实应该是苦多乐少吧..............

我脑海中正思潮起伏，念念如浪浪波涛般地冲击着我的心岸。

有点恐慌。
有点惊疑。
有点迷茫。

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Was talking to Eileen earlier on. I wonder why I asked her those. I wonder why I told her about the lumps. I wonder why I talked to her about.. ... .... ...
Instead of just chatting a normal conversation with her.

Ended up I don't want to continue with the conversation any longer. I just said a hurried goodbye and, well, left msn. So to speak.


So secrets will end up being secrets after all. I guess some of my secrets will really follow me to my grave. Regrets probably will follow with the secrets.



I really want to make everyone I care for happy. I really really do. In all the self sacrificing of my time, money, energy, life. I will do almost anything, that doesn't violates my principals.



But I failed. Again. Why?

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应该了解世间种种的苦空无我，诸法无常，诸法无我，涅盘寂静。

但是我还是执着。



因为，对我而言。。。

关心，关怀，保护及照顾我生命中重要的人，正是我活着的意义之一。


你知道吗？