梦

原本，少了灵魂的一部分，我已经不会再写了。毕竟我所有的文艺灵感都是从那里启发出来的。。。不过，没想到的是，原来我的心，竟然给了我那么一丁点的刺激。

也许就像金庸笔下的武侠小说人物；杨过一样吧。在等待小龙女那16年的漫长岁月，创出了<<黯然销魂掌>>。以心使身、身使肩、肩使臂。。。然而当杨过与小龙女重逢后，因心中的那生离之苦已荡然无存，杨过竟然无法使出自己所创的掌法。

相信这也是金庸先生曾经经历过的。然而我不像金庸先生一样，是个文坛上的奇才。但是。。。今天，我还是决定写了下来。因为，这些将成为我的记忆。哪怕是伤心的，苦闷的，它们还是我的一部分。。







Among all the 5 dreams, this is the 3rd one i've had which has the same theme. Me. the main character of the dream. Me, running around, all over the place, searching. Me, searching for her. But this time, i was running a lot lesser than usual. The dream priorer to this one, i was running in the vast vast sand dune. Running here and there. running beyond the abilities of humans, running as fast as a high speed vehicle on the expressway. Running, searching. For her.

This one has quite a bit of derivation from all the running and searching. Yeah, different. It was a gathering. Of which a close frend of mine who's currently in Boston, US, was also in the gathering. it rained. We looked for shelter. All of us ran to this huge shelter. And everyone started having their meals. I took my plate, laden them with food...and walked over to where my close frend sit. I put my plate on the table, then my frend asked, wat's wrong. He must have seen my face. Since a few yrs ago when i learnt to wear a mask to hide my emotions and feelings externally, but before that, i will be wearing my feelings and emotions on my face. So, i guess my face turned pretty ugly when he saw me. Then i turned and dashed off. Searching. Looking. Searching for someone. Someone whose presense i felt at the gathering. I ran. Ran and ran. endlessly. I din noe where i was going. I just noe that if i keep on running, i will find her.

I din find her. in the end. however, i reached a room. this room. with a computer. the computer, had an internet access. Something propelled me to use the computer. And. I found her. I found her presence. Her presence, in the form of a blog. through a link from some website(blog). i was elated. the last date of entry was yesterday(in accordance to the dream). she had stopped blogging so suddenly, with no priorer warning. with just the last post saying farewell. and she disappeared. just disappeared. but now she had been blogging again. i was really elated. in my excitement, i quickly closed the browser and left. but immediately, something bugs at my instinct, and i went back to the computer. i couldn't find her blog anymore. not even through the same link. i couldn't remember her new blog url. and the link which gotten me to her new blog directed me to another gal's blog. its not her blog anymore. i lost her again. she has managed to slipped out of my life again. again......




我醒了。我不敢相信，即使是梦，也无法让我找到她的踪影吗？这是梦啊! 我的梦! 连梦里我都不能如愿吗? 我不放弃。我继续睡，继续。。直到我能见到你为止。。。睡。。。



vampire. me and a companion found a vampire in this building. vampire. we were moving ard the building and we found it. lying dormant as its still daylight. we started to find out way out. out of the building. we walked...and walked...and...


我再次的醒了。不对，这不是我要的梦。我要延续找她的梦。因为我相信，只要我继续找下去，我一定会见到她的。。。。继续睡。。回到那个梦。。。


i'm back in the building...with my companion...walking our way out of the building. the day is getting shorter. the light is getting dimmer. the night is arriving. we started walking faster. and faster. then we reached the exit. the vampire shot out its hands at us, only to be caught between the bars of the gate. we heaved a sigh of relief....


我又醒了。不对啊! 我要延续的不是这个梦! 唉。

不早了。起床了。。。。。


梦醒了。可是，我另一个梦，我是会让那个梦持续下去的。。。