You are not Truly Happy

crying in the crowd, u wish to turn to transparent color
u will never ever, dream or pain or heartache
u have decided, u have decided

u quietly endure, hold to yesterday tightly in ur fist
as memories get sweeter, they will hurt even more
the more ur hands will get lots and lots of deep and shallow knife wounds

u ain't really truly happy
ur smile is a protection u wear outside
u decide not to hate, nor ever fall in love
u have closed ur soul inside a locked forever body

the whole world has laughed
so u gregariously laugh along with them
when survival is the rule, but not of ur choice
therefore u aimlessly stumbling walked on with tears in ur eyes

u ain't really truly happy
ur smile is a protection u wear outside
u decide not to hate, nor ever fall in love
u have closed ur soul inside a locked forever body

u ain't really truly happy
ur wounds have never healed up completely
i'm standing beside u, feels like at ends of the world
do we have to live with regrets until we are old
and regret in the end

u deserve true happiness
u should remove the protection that u wore
y must u have lose it and get punished for it
can u let all the sufferings end here right now
relive ur life again~!

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Quiet

left only piano company me for a day
and a sleeping cello, quiet quiet old old one.
i think u already show very clearly
i noe i acknowledge, there's nothing for u to bear
u say u're sad as well but i dun believe
hold to u company me is all but the past
hope he really does love u more than i do
i will then force myself to leave.

u want me say how ugly, i dun want to separate
y do i have to use a smile to get through
i never have the talent, allow u to accept him
do not have to worry much, i will live life properly

u have distanced urself far, i'll slowly walk away
y i've to accomodate u when we separate
i really dun have the talent, wun be so quick to quiet down
i will learn to let u go, that's coz i love u too much~