You are not Truly Happy

crying in the crowd, u wish to turn to transparent color
u will never ever, dream or pain or heartache
u have decided, u have decided

u quietly endure, hold to yesterday tightly in ur fist
as memories get sweeter, they will hurt even more
the more ur hands will get lots and lots of deep and shallow knife wounds

u ain't really truly happy
ur smile is a protection u wear outside
u decide not to hate, nor ever fall in love
u have closed ur soul inside a locked forever body

the whole world has laughed
so u gregariously laugh along with them
when survival is the rule, but not of ur choice
therefore u aimlessly stumbling walked on with tears in ur eyes

u ain't really truly happy
ur smile is a protection u wear outside
u decide not to hate, nor ever fall in love
u have closed ur soul inside a locked forever body

u ain't really truly happy
ur wounds have never healed up completely
i'm standing beside u, feels like at ends of the world
do we have to live with regrets until we are old
and regret in the end

u deserve true happiness
u should remove the protection that u wore
y must u have lose it and get punished for it
can u let all the sufferings end here right now
relive ur life again~!

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Quiet

left only piano company me for a day
and a sleeping cello, quiet quiet old old one.
i think u already show very clearly
i noe i acknowledge, there's nothing for u to bear
u say u're sad as well but i dun believe
hold to u company me is all but the past
hope he really does love u more than i do
i will then force myself to leave.

u want me say how ugly, i dun want to separate
y do i have to use a smile to get through
i never have the talent, allow u to accept him
do not have to worry much, i will live life properly

u have distanced urself far, i'll slowly walk away
y i've to accomodate u when we separate
i really dun have the talent, wun be so quick to quiet down
i will learn to let u go, that's coz i love u too much~

25th May 2009

25th May 2009

Her Birthday.


24th May 2009. Her mother's birthday.


bought 3 bottles of Hock Hua Blood Swallow Birds Nest Soup for her mother.

Bought a card, a rose for her birthday.

She din go to temple due to having a headache.

Quite disappointed. Was hoping can give her in person.

25th May 2009. Its been one year. 365 days from 25th May 2008.

25th May 2008. A day to remember. A day i will never forget.

joke =\

saw this joke in the library..
almost laughed out damn loudly.... =x

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4 women on board a little boat.
They are American, Japanese, Singaporean and China. So travel halfway the boat start to sink and the captain order the women to throw away their stuff to lighten the load.
The American throw away her luggage of cash and announce that her country is rich and have alot of money.
The Japanese throw away all her High Tech stuff and announce that her country is smart and create alot of High Tech stuff.
The Singaporean stand there thinking for quite some time and then suddenly throw the China woman over
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sibeh evil...but funny if u look it from a joke's perspective.

wanted to pass her the shirt, but see her with her frends and. ....... ............................
then i hesitated.
ended up i din pass her the shirt.

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Went cycling.




.....engrossed in thoughts.........




almost got into accident.

wonder how many of my frends would realise if i just pass away like that.
probably less than 5.